Self Love

I am 5'2 at my highest weight of 195lbs, I have never felt more insecure about my body like I do now. When I was in high school I always beat myself up for being 135lbs, I dreamed of being 115lbs like all the girls on my basketball team, to me it felt unfair that I was not exactly like them. Not I'd give anything to be 135lbs again haha. I had 3 pregnancies and even after labor my weight was between 140-150. It wasn't until health complications overtook my body and I was forced to get a hysterectomy. No I cannot seem to be able to lose the weight. I've been diagnosed with endometriosis, PCOS, hormonal imbalance... list could go on. I have set the goal of not letting this overtake me, there is more to life than worrying about your weight. It's saddens me to see that this era we live in is so focused on who has a BBL and who doesn't, we're all perfect in our own way. Self love should be the main focus. Love yourself in order to love others.